You're with Kumopi, right? That makes you family! Besides, you're kind of like a little bro I've never had, anyway.
[ he loves the gremlin energy ]
JiuJiu used something like a cure-all a gumball on me - something to cure curses and refractions, apparently. Remember how she said a while back that she used a gumball on me but it didn't work? Turns out, it was just delayed.
I thought you were Kumon's friend, not his brother.
Oh. Huh...I didn't know these things could be delayed. I just figured you were cursed to act grumpy that week and it just went away on its own like the other times people were weird.
You must not have seen the party, huh? He said himself that I'm like a big bro!
Neither did anyone else at the time. That was before we knew much about refracting, anyway, so I think most people just assumed it was a curse. But no. It was def refraction. You don't really think I'd kill Nines just because I felt like it, did you?
I...didn't really realize that you did, honestly. I was pretty confused about what happened with you back then and the way you got cured. I didn't know exactly what it meant.
[ his demeanor changes, turning into something more thoughtful, almost morose. ]
I mean, it helps a little to know that it wasn't actually my choice, you know? But only a tiny bit, because it was still my actions.
And I had a lot of support, and then hearing that they weren't really gone forever made it a little easier to adjust, because we still had a chance at bringing everyone back. I hate dwelling on the past, so I tried not to think about it too much and just tried to keep working towards seeing you all again.
...It might help to be able to talk to the other person, too.
A little. And he did punch me first thing, and I don't blame him.
[ there is a bruise on his face he's not trying to hide it. but he shrugs. ]
I don't think we can expect to be forgiven, even if we were sort of brainwashed for it. That's for the people we killed to decide. But it's not like we can undo it, so we just have to keep moving forward, anyway.
Hehe, that's right! And believe it or not, Suki does have some good advice sometimes, even if he's bad at taking it himself. You should totes listen to him!
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How'd you stop refracting? Clarte said they were cured...
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[ he loves the gremlin energy ]
JiuJiu used something like a cure-all a gumball on me - something to cure curses and refractions, apparently. Remember how she said a while back that she used a gumball on me but it didn't work? Turns out, it was just delayed.
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Oh. Huh...I didn't know these things could be delayed. I just figured you were cursed to act grumpy that week and it just went away on its own like the other times people were weird.
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Neither did anyone else at the time. That was before we knew much about refracting, anyway, so I think most people just assumed it was a curse. But no. It was def refraction. You don't really think I'd kill Nines just because I felt like it, did you?
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...how do you deal with it? Knowing what you did.
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I mean, it helps a little to know that it wasn't actually my choice, you know? But only a tiny bit, because it was still my actions.
And I had a lot of support, and then hearing that they weren't really gone forever made it a little easier to adjust, because we still had a chance at bringing everyone back. I hate dwelling on the past, so I tried not to think about it too much and just tried to keep working towards seeing you all again.
...It might help to be able to talk to the other person, too.
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[ there is a bruise on his face he's not trying to hide it. but he shrugs. ]
I don't think we can expect to be forgiven, even if we were sort of brainwashed for it. That's for the people we killed to decide. But it's not like we can undo it, so we just have to keep moving forward, anyway.
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[ he says it like it's a joke, with a light laugh to boot ]
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...only sometimes?
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But he is right this time. You have to keep going, and all of us are right there with you.
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[ then we all start refracting again lol ]